Colton Haynes & The Photo He Spent Years Trying To ‘Erase’ From Internet

Colton Haynes
Colton Haynes
Colton Haynes (image via Depositphotos)

Actor Colton Haynes (Teen Wolf, Arrow) took to social media Thursday night to share a photo he spent years trying to erase from the internet.

The image was used on the cover of the March 2006 issue of XY, a magazine aimed at young LGBTQ readers.

Haynes shares that he was a teenager and working as a model when the homoerotic photo was taken.

In his Instagram post, Haynes says for many years he was “incredibly ashamed” of the photo and worried that it would affect his career.

The 32-year-old says looking at the photo made him sad as it reminded of him of a time “before I was placed with voice & movement coaches to straighten me up for the cameras…before I learned to see my queerness as a liability.”

Haynes shares candidly he feels “jealous” of the boy he sees in the image: “so open, so free.” And he now realizes he “had to be taught that it wasn’t ok to be who he was.”

“Being gay is worth celebrating,” Haynes adds. “I wish I’d figured that out sooner, but I’m so glad I know it now. To everyone in the LGBTQIA+ community, I hope you celebrate yourselves this month & always, exactly as you are.”

The post has received over 570,000 likes on Instagram with several of Haynes’s famous friends chiming in with their support.

Actress Keke Palmer wrote, “Thank you for sharing your art. How beautiful you were then and now. I thank you for posting this and hate what you went through but so glad it’s made you a vessel to cast out the darkness with truth and light!!”

Michelle Visage (RuPaul’s Drag Race) replied “LOUD AND PROUD BABY”

Charlie Carver (Boys in the Band) sent some heart emoji love and Food Network host Jonathan Bennett responded, “This is so powerful. I feel you Buddy. Love who you were then and love who you are now.”

Fortunately, Haynes is now much more comfortable in his own skin. His Instagram feed shows he recently did a photoshoot for GQ Thailand that looks pretty Pride-ful.

News Round-Up: August 14, 2020

(screen capture via HBO)

Some news stories you might have missed:

NPR: A new survey from NPR/PBS NewsHour/Marist poll shows more than a third of Americans (35%) say they won’t get vaccinated when a vaccine comes available; 60% say they will. The poll also indicates former Vice President Joe Biden now leads Donald Trump 53% to 42%, up from an 8-point advantage at the end of June.

Instinct Magazine: From the director of Call Me By Your Name, HBO announces We Are Who We Are (screen cap above), premiering September 14, a new coming-of-age story about two American teenagers who live on an American military base with their parents in Italy.

Billings Gazette: Kanye West’s sad, inconsequential bid for the White House is being funded/directed by the Trump campaign to siphon off Black votes from Joe Biden. “You want to help Trump?” one of the organizers called out. “We’re trying to take votes away from creepy Uncle Joe.”

KIT212: Check out Kenneth’s weekly round-up of the what’s what in local LGBTQ publications like Get Out!’s latest issue encouraging folks to ‘Flex Your Vote.’

(via GetOut!)

Variety: AMC Theatres, for one day only, will offer tickets to select movies for only 15 cents, roughly the equivalent of what it cost to watch a movie in 1920. That’s the year that the company’s founders began operations in Kansas City, Missouri. Note – the offer will be for legacy titles such as “Black Panther” and “The Empire Strikes Back.”

Twitter: Out Teen Wolf/Arrow star Colton Haynes has put in his bid to play the super-hero Iceman in the upcoming reboot of the X-Men movie franchise after hearing rumors Shia LeBeouf was being vetted for the role. Haynes shared a gif of the mutant hero with an emoji of a young guy raising his hand. I totally see Haynes in the role.

Colton Haynes Is The Daddy We Always Knew He’d Be

Colton Haynes shares in a new YouTube video that he’s finally a daddy!

Ok, not that kind of ‘daddy,’ and it’s complicated…

It seems the time had finally come for Colton to bring a cat into his life: “Hey y’all…meet my son…Timothee Chalameow!”

But our hero may have had unrealistic expectations about cuddling and playing with Timothee right off the bat. Cut to Colton trying to coax his new buddy out from under the furniture.

“This is my life now, folks – trying to win the affection of a cat,” muses Colton as Timothee stares from the relative safety under the couch. “I’m so excited! I was born to be a cat dad.”

“Come here,…come cuddle with me,” pleads Colton to an aloof Timothee. “I just want your love and affection.”

L-R Colton Haynes, Timothee Chalameow

Colton swears to the camera that Timothee cuddles with him, but the new cat of the house doesn’t seem as drawn to the camera as his cat dad.

Is it possible Colton had a dog in mind and got confused?

And then, there’s the inevitable ‘incident.’

“Man, this whole fairy tale of getting a cat…Whoo! Not all it’s cracked up to be,” Colton shares. Apparently, there was a knock at the door, a deliveryman and a freak out involved, although Colton does see a silver lining of sorts.

Showing off his new scar, Colton shares that Timothee did attack him, but in a ‘super chic way.’  “It looks like a sexy vampire bite, so now I have that.”

I don’t want to give away the whole story, but all in all, it’s a pretty cute diversion from the outside world.

Hit the play button below to see if/how/when Colton and Timothee ever find common ground.

Video: Colton Haynes Attempts DIY Haircut

Colton Haynes (screen capture)

Colton Haynes (The Flash, Teen Wolf) returns to YouTube for the first time in four years to offer this light-hearted, “mild entertainment” as he bravely gives himself a haircut with basically no experience to rely on.

“HEY YALL! Please enjoy this in-depth/high-quality video (lol) of me getting ready…to go nowhere…to do nothing,” writes the actor on his YouTube page. “I have no idea how to YouTube yet haha but I’m working on it! Sending all of y’all love during this unsettling time.”

He begins by showing us how he starts his day, fresh from the pillow, and sipping his morning coffee Redbull caffeine.

Side note: Colton is looking very good these days. After some difficult times in the past, we’re happy to see the 31-year-old look so fresh and healthy.

Haynes makes it clear right up front he has no idea where this might go announcing, “I’m not a professional hairstylist, so I don’t call this a tutorial at all.”

“Don’t do this at home, kids. Please, don’t do this to yourselves,” adds the handsome Haynes. “This could, possibly, be terrible…but here we go.”

Haynes begins by blindly shaving the sides and back of his head without the aid of a second mirror. It seems like things might work out ok,…maybe.

Our intrepid hero goes a little high on the left side but tries to even it out. You know what that means…

“That doesn’t look too bad, though, does it?” he asks halfway through the haircut.

He also just “goes for it” in addressing the back of his head. Perhaps a bit patchy, but, hey – who’s going to see it anyway?

“It doesn’t look bad,” declares Haynes. “It’s not at all blended, but…looks clean…I think.”

In the end, we can confidently report Haynes definitely has less hair on his head.

If you want expert advice on keeping up with your hair and facial fur, click over to Instinct Magazine’s chat with haircare expert Christopher Cetroni here.

Colton Haynes To Star In New Series As ‘Famous InstaGay’

Colton Haynes (image via Depositphotos)

Handsome Arrow star Colton Haynes has been announced to star in a new TV series titled I Run Hot.

The series, being developed for AMC Studios by Broad City co-creator Ilana Glazer, will star the 31-year-old actor playing “a famous #instagay who can’t help but exemplify it.”

Eliot Glazer (Broad City), brother of Ilana, co-stars as “a gay curmudgeon who never quite fit in with the community” as the series follows the duo’s unlikely friendship.

Haynes posted the announcement on his social media writing, “Here we go!!! I am sooo excited to work with my boos @eliotglazer @ilana @amc_tv #IRunHot”

Haynes returned to his role of “Roy Harper” on The CW’s Arrow this past fall as the show wraps up its 8th and final season. The final two episodes are set to air on January 21 and 28.

In addition to Arrow, Haynes is well-known to TV audiences for his roles in Teen Wolf and American Horror Story: Cult.

After publicly coming out in 2016, he famously married florist Jeff Leatham only to file for divorce six months later.

In 2019, he seemingly emerged from a turbulent chapter in his life opening up about his issues with addiction in a candid interview in Attitude Magazine.

Speaking to The Advocate last summer, he took responsibility for how the press and social media spun his life out to the masses saying he had “no one to blame but myself.”

“I was posting every second of my life online. Every positive, every negative.”

“Eventually I became click bait, eventually everything that we all joke about — how I could literally say something online and the trolls will pick it up and spin it into something, that ‘I’m spiraling out of control,” he added. “I did make myself [look] that way, not knowing I was doing that.”

It looks like Haynes has turned the corner for himself and is heading towards a brighter future. Good on him!

Haynes shared this photo to Instagram as he celebrated the new year

News Round-Up: October 16, 2019

Jim Newman (image via Instagram)

Some news items you might have missed:

InstaHunks: Jim Newman (above) throws back to when he was touring with the legendary Village People as ‘the Cowboy’ (until a lawsuit had to go ruin it all…).

Gay City News: A gay man in Jackson Heights was returning home early in the morning on October 13 when he said a stranger exposed himself, punched him, stole his belongings, and dragged him on the ground — all because he wouldn’t perform oral sex on him.

The Advocate: Brianna Hill of Kansas City, Missouri, who was shot to death on Monday morning, is the 20th transgender woman of color to be murdered this year.

New York Times: The newspaper of note recaps the winners and losers of last night’s Democratic debate. Everyone pretty much felt Mayor Pete Buttigieg had a very good night. Here’s just a sample:

Politico: A former top adviser to Secretary of State Mike Pompeo told House impeachment investigators on Wednesday that he abruptly resigned last week because of President Donald Trump’s attacks on the ousted U.S. ambassador to Ukraine and the State Department’s unwillingness to protect career diplomats from political pressure, according to two people familiar with the testimony.

People: Arrow star Colton Haynes, 31, and celebrity florist Jeff Leatham, 48, have quietly settled their divorce. In addition to waiving their rights to spousal support and the division of property, the exes have agreed to a non-disclosure and confidentiality agreement. In other words, no ‘tell-all’ memoirs.

The WOW Report: Former The Apprentice staffer Noel Casler shares (among other things), “He’s a speed freak. He crushes up his Adderall and he sniffs it because he can’t read and he gets really nervous when he has to read cue cards. I’m not kidding. This is true.”

Colton Haynes Shares On Social Media & Mental Health

Colton Haynes (via Instagram)

Sunday evening, Arrow star Colton Haynes took a different tone on his Instagram account as he addressed how projecting “a curated life” has taken a toll on his mental health.The post, which he labeled ‘Throwback,’ included a collection of selfies from what appear to be past hospital stays. The images are a stark contrast from his Instagram’s usual fare of frolicsome, sunlit beach moments and model-perfect photos.

And that would be the point.

“I don’t want worrying about if I look hot or not on Instagram to be my legacy,’ penned the 31-year-old. “I don’t want to skirt around the truth to please other people or to gain economic success.”

The former Teen Wolf actor shared with his 6.4 million followers that today he feels “immense joy” when someone shares that his “willingness to open up about depression, anxiety, alcoholism, & addiction has helped them in some way.”

In March of this year, Haynes openly addressed his struggles with mental health and addiction with Attitude Magazine saying, “In 10 years, there were maybe 25 days I didn’t drink.”

Colton Haynes says worrying whether or not he "looked hot" in Instagram posts was a "complete waste" of time.
(image via Instagram)

He added that he had achieved six months of sobriety at the time.

In his recent Instagram post, he admits that while he’s “struggled the past year” with trying to “find his voice,” he regards the journey as “the most beautiful struggle I’ve ever had to go through.”

Pointing to his social media accounts, Haynes says he regrets the time he’s spent worrying about “what time to post on social media so I can maximize my likes,” calling those concerns ” a complete waste of why I was put on this earth.”

The point of the hospital photos, which he says were taken a year ago, is to “let y’all in on my truth.”

Reflecting on what he describes as “dark” times, he offers candidly, “I’m a human being with flaws like you.”

He closes the note with a word of encouragement to his fans: “If ur in the middle of the dark times…I promise you it doesn’t have to last forever.”

You can read the full Instagram post from Haynes below.

 

Throwback. I don’t want worrying about if I look hot or not on Instagram to be my legacy. I don’t want to skirt around the truth to please other people or to gain economic success. I have far more important things to say than what magazine I just shot for or what tv show I’m a part of (Although I’m very thankful I still get to do what I love). I no longer want to project a curated life. I get immense joy when someone comes up to me & says that my willingness to open up about depression, anxiety, alcoholism, & addiction has helped them in some way. I’ve struggled the past year with trying to find my voice and where I fit in & that has been the most beautiful struggle I’ve ever had to go through. Worrying about what time to post on social media so I can maximize my likes or being mad at myself that I don’t look the same way I did when I was addicted to pills is a complete waste of why I was put on this earth. I’m posting these photos to let y’all in on my truth. I’m so grateful to be where I am now ( a year after these photos were taken) but man these times were dark. I’m a human being with flaws just like you. If ur in the middle of the dark times…I promise you it doesn’t have to last forever. Love y’all ❤️
A post shared by Colton Haynes (@coltonlhaynes) on Aug 18, 2019 at 4:04pm PDT

The practice of chasing ‘Likes’ on Instagram has become an issue of late as Facebook (which owns Instagram) recently announced the platform is currently running a test in seven countries where ‘Likes’ will no longer be visible to followers.

Instagram says it wants viewers to “focus on the photos and videos you share, not how many likes they get.”

Colton Haynes: “No One To Blame But Myself” For Social Media Spinning His Life

Actor Colton Haynes covers the latest issue of The Advocate and shares that he only blames himself for his personal life spiraling out in public due to his own social media over-sharing
Colton Haynes covers ‘The Advocate’

For many LGBTQ people, Pride Month is not only a celebration of who we are, but how we got here.

Teen Wolf/Arrow star Colton Haynes covers the latest issue of The Advocate and shares a candid look-back on his road to ‘here,’ and how being gay factored in to the highs and lows of stardom.

At the age of 14, Haynes experience two life-changing events: coming out to his family and he was discovered by a modeling agency talent scout.

By the time he was 20, he’d appeared in ad campaigns for Abercrombie & Fitch, JC Penney and Ralph Lauren. He’d also begun making appearances in films (Transformers), TV series (CSI: Miami, The Hills, Pushing Daisies) and music videos (Chemical Romance’s “I Don’t Love You”).

Along the way there were some disappointments like two TV series (Showtime’s Look, ABC’s The Gates) that were both quickly cancelled.

But then came MTV’s Teen Wolf which cast the hunky actor as high school lacrosse player “Jackson Whittemore.” Life soon went into hyperdrive as the series had nearly 2.5 million viewers tuning in each week.

Haynes tells The Advocate the series “just exploded because we went from shooting the pilot to presenting at the MTV Movie Awards, which was insane.”

But amid the heady success, there was the inevitable dark side.

Haynes was still closeted, and he recalls being explicitly told to stay in the closet or it would “jeopardize the show.”

He also found out that, during casting, some teenage pics of him kissing a guy had begun circulating around the internet and one MTV executive was against hiring Haynes.

But the show’s creator, Jeff Davis, became Haynes’ champion telling the network, “If you’re not going to hire this person because they’re gay, then we’re going to remove this character completely.”

Obviously, Haynes got the job but felt he was trapped in the closet.

“Despite the fact that I was gay, I hid my sexuality throughout being on Teen Wolf,” says Haynes. “Everyone knew, obviously, when we were filming but I definitely butched it up and kind of hid it while I was filming.”

A post shared by Colton Haynes (@coltonlhaynes) on Mar 3, 2018 at 7:12pm PST

Looking back at those early 20-something, closeted years today from the perspective of an out 30-year old (he publicly came out three years ago), Haynes still feels like the ‘Hollywood system’ didn’t give him a choice if he wanted to be successful.

“In order to be seen as being able to play a leading man or being able to play the roles I’ve played thus far, I really did need to create this persona,” he told The Advocate. “Unfortunately, Hollywood can be very limiting with their choices.”

He added that, while things aregetting better, since coming out the only auditions he’s being called for are gay roles.

In the middle of Haynes’ professional successes, though, there were personal, private challenges like living with drug/alcohol abuse and anxiety issues, and the passing of his mother in 2018.

Even while visiting his mother in the hospital (who was there due to a failing liver from her own drinking issues, he told Attitude he drank tequila from a water bottle.

A post shared by Colton Haynes (@coltonlhaynes) on Dec 3, 2017 at 4:15pm PST

Just months later he found himself in a media storm as he filed for divorce after being married less than a year to florist Jeff Leatham.

He’s since shared publicly that there had been episodes where he would check into hotels and go on weeklong benders of drugs and alcohol.

In March, Haynes told Attitude that when one ‘hotel stay’ left him bruised, partially blind in his left eye and nearly ruptured his kidney, the actor checked into rehab. It was then he took a cold, sober look at himself.

Today, he says he has “no one to blame but myself” in terms of how the press and social media spun his life out to the masses.

Taking full responsibility for the wild ride, Haynes admits, “I was posting every second of my life online. Every positive, every negative.”

“Eventually I became click bait, eventually everything that we all joke about — how I could literally say something online and the trolls will pick it up and spin it into something, that ‘I’m spiraling out of control,” he added. “I did make myself [look] that way, not knowing I was doing that.”

A post shared by Colton Haynes (@coltonlhaynes) on Nov 26, 2018 at 2:23pm PST

Haynes hopes that, even with possible ‘over-sharing’ on social media, his struggles might help other people.

“I’m still hearing from certain people that have gone through what I’ve gone through,” he explains. “Even though a lot of it isn’t as in-depth as the way that I’ve shared, it helps me to be able to share a lot more because I’m like, ‘Oh, I’m not alone. I’m not crazy. My struggles aren’t just my own. A lot of people go through this.’”

And even though his super-hero days appear to be coming to an end as Arrow producers have announced its upcoming 8th season will be the last, Haynes still believes we all can be heroes – folks who are “true and authentic” and “really stand up for something they believe in.”

There’s a positive message for Pride, and definitely a hopeful perspective as Haynes looks to his next chapter.

“It’s totally in all of us, and it’s really special. Everyone just needs to tap into it.”

Colton Haynes Shares Dark Details Of His Struggle With Addiction

In startlingly candid detail, actor Colton Haynes shares how his struggles with drug and alcohol addiction, paralyzing anxiety, the death of his mother and the end of his marriage led him to some very dark places.
Colton Haynes covers Attitude Magazine’s 25th Anniversary issue

In startlingly candid detail, actor Colton Haynes shares how his struggles with drug and alcohol addiction, paralyzing anxiety, the death of his mother and the end of his marriage led him to some very dark places.

In the cover story for Attitude Magazine’s 25th Anniversary issue, the Teen Wolf/Arrow star opens up about his dangerous downward spiral that led him to recovery.

“In 10 years, there were maybe 25 days I didn’t drink,” he tells Attitude. “I remember when I started, it was a couple glasses of wine, and it regressed into really dark times. I used to blame it on my anxiety or depression issues, but really the root of all my problems was the alcohol and drugs.”

Haynes points to his public coming out in 2016 as the catalyst that pushed his personal issues to the edge.

“I came out and, in a way, my downward spiral started,” he admits. “I felt extremely free but at the same time the amount of attention I was getting was making me spin out of control.”

“I got married and that didn’t work out,” Haynes continues. “That was extremely public and heart-breaking, and right when that was going on, my mom died.”

The passing of his mother was apparently the last straw – “My brain broke.”

The American Horror Story alum shares that when he showed up for his first day of work on a ‘massive comedy for a studio,’ he was abruptly fired that day.

“They said I looked as if I had ‘dead in my eyes’, and I did,” Haynes admits. “I got so heavily involved with drugs and alcohol to mask the amount of pain I was feeling that I couldn’t even make some decisions for myself.”

“I was drowning in my own sh*t.”

It was during those dark days that Haynes would experience two seizures, but wouldn’t remember them until he found sobriety.

But that would be a rocky road to travel. The journey to recovery included multiple hospital admissions for alcohol and drug abuse.

It wasn’t until after a 7-day bender in a Los Angeles hotel room that he was committed via a 5150 psychiatric hold for three days. When he was found in the hotel room, he admits to having major bruises all over his body, loss of partial sight in his left eye, and serious kidney issues.

Haynes saw the incident as a “rude awakening” as he hit rock bottom.

“I was ready to stop running from my own problems,” said Haynes.

He entered a four-month treatment program, and says he has been sober for six months now.

“Once I went to treatment, I found this amazing amount of true love for myself, and started figuring out who I am without those vices, and recognizing the people in my life who lifted me up instead of tearing me down.”

Like many who struggle with addiction, Haynes now realizes he’s “always going to be in recovery.”

The TV super hero is sharing his story now because, “There are so many people struggling out there, but not a lot of them talk about it.”

With sobriety comes clarity, and with clarity comes a new perspective.

“Life is much more beautiful than I could have imagined,” he says. “It’s just a different life now. It’s the best gift I’ve ever been given.”

Check out Haynes’s full cover story/interview in the May 2019 issue of Attitude Magazine.

The hunky actor also shared some of the Leigh Keily photo shoot for Attitude with his 6.6 million Instagram followers.

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Podcast: Midterm Elections Recap, Tanzania, Rock Hudson & Colton Haynes

In this podcast:

• As the close races are finding a victor days later, I break down the midterm elections on how LGBTQ candidates did, as well as how the “Blue Wave” will affect our community.

• The US State Department denounces the hideous human rights violations against LGBTQ people in Tanzania.

• Hollywood legend Rock Hudson is getting a big screen biopic treatment by out super-producer Greg Berlanti (Love, Simon).

• And Colton Haynes surprised fans with a cover of “A Million Dreams” from The Greatest Showman.

All that and more in this episode of The Randy Report.

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I like to think of this podcast as the 60 Minutes of gay news — only shorter 🙂